I used to read poetry, and write it, too.
When students ask how to learn how to write better, I tell them Read poetry. Write it, too. They look at me, faces pulled back and skeptical. Your poems may be no good, I say, you may not want to show them to anyone. At this, they nod.
But you will pay attention, I say. You will learn to pay attention to the words.
I keep forgetting this, the paying of attention. Words come so easily for me, I take them in chunks and waterfalls, gorge on and scatter them, thoughtlessly.
Pay attention. I used to whisper this to myself, as a reminder. Then I stopped paying attention.
Friday at TNC’s open thread seems unofficially designated as poetry day. People post their own or, more commonly, poems which move them.
I’ve been rushing past. Words words words—what’s the point?
Slow down. Pay attention.
So, two poems, in honor of my long-ago friend C., and in memory of her younger brother, J.
Fourteen years ago this month—this Saturday—J. shot himself to death. He was thirteen.
What could we bring C.? I brought music; we brought ourselves. And I gave her two poems:
The body of my brother Osiris is in the mustard seed
Seed from an early Egyptian tomb,
after water damage to the case
in the Historisches Museum,
sprouted in 1955.
That was the year my brother’s foot
slipped on spray-wet log.
He was gone
into the whitewater out of sight.
Just downstream
the back of his head
came up
in a narrow chute.
Between terrible rocks
the back of my brother’s head
looked wet and small and dark.
I watched it through the roar.
Through tears, afraid
to pray, I told God
he was swimming. Wait.
He would lift his face.
—Brooks Haxton
Moira
A day comes when nothing matters
And nothing will suffice.
The heart says: I cannot,
The soul says: I am not.
The window whose frame
Once held dawn
Gleams all night in desolation,
And the one tree
Untouched by blight
Offers a fruit you do not refuse,
An anguish impossible to conceive
Until this lucky day.
Weigh it in your hands, so heavy,
So light: is there more to wish for?
—Phyllis Levin
