The lion sleeps tonight: one year later

2 05 2010

Chelsea. It’s a year to the day.

1991-2009

The mourning has not gone well. I’ve grieved, and not. I’ve handled it, and not.

I can think of her without tears, but only rarely; because of this, I only rarely think of her.

She does help me with Bean, in trying to do better in recognizing and responding to her needs. I’m patient with Bean in a way I was not always with Chelsea.

I couldn’t see that she was dying, couldn’t see her.

I still can’t, in so many ways.

My sweet Chelsea still has something more to teach me. Perhaps by next year, I can finally let her rest.

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3 responses

4 05 2010
geekhiker

Sorry to hear of your grief. I hope the lessons come soon to relieve you of the burden!

6 05 2010
Mo

They’re like little Buddhas and I don’t think we ever really let them rest.

9 05 2010
absurdbeats

I’d just like to remember her and be glad, not sad.

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